It’s nearing the end of 2020 now; the longest year ever is what it’s felt like for me and I’m sure for many of you as well. When the roaring 20s started I choose the word “INVEST” as my focus. I’ve done so much of it: financially, emotionally, and with my time. As I reflect on what this choice has done for me, I realize that invest is bigger than 2020; invest is the legacy I want to leave behind.
At the start of 2020, I found Acorns and set up weekly deposits. They’ve grown a little and are making Christmas a little brighter this year for all of us. I don’t even notice the money leaving my account weekly but I do see how it continues to grow. I also found myself throughout the year asking myself if I wanted to INVEST my money instead of SPEND it. Changing the narrative around finances has me buying less fast food and instant gratification purchases, and enjoying better wine and desserts at home with my husband (investing in high-quality experiences). We invested a chunk of change into a bubble tent – and while it was a big purchase, it’s given us so many moments of joy.
Emotionally I’ve chosen to invest my time (and money) into therapy; both solo and couples. Investing in my emotional wellness and giving myself better tools for coping with BiPolar2 and OCD feels like an invaluable gift. I look back on who I was as a parent, friend, and partner even just a few years ago compared to now and I’m astounded at my growth. I have also learned to forgive myself for the shortcomings of my past by recognizing my growth. I have a lot more happiness – honestly, I have even found worth in my sadness. I’m cultivating gratitude in all circumstances.
Time is the thing I’ve been most careful to invest in during 2020. I set boundaries. I ended relationships that no longer served me. I actively tried to check on my friends. I tried to put my phone down more and look at my family in the eye. I spent my time creating spaces that bring me peace in my soul like my bubble, my glamper, and our home. I loved harder and showed up more often. I spent less time watching trashy tv (I mean, I still watched A LOT of trash tv though) and more time listening to motivational podcasts while I was working. I tried to make more moments count.
Ultimately, as I reflect on my word of the year, I realize that what I want this to amount to is a forever change of heart. I want to leave behind a legacy of INVESTING smartly. I want to have continued financial and emotional growth that gives my family stability and peace. I want my community to know I love and care for them. I want to know and share more encouragement than complaints. I want my people to know that I will show up for them. I want to know I have created a lasting feeling in the hearts of many that Sarah is someone who loves hard in her actions. I want to love myself enough to INVEST in me more with each passing day.
I have no idea what my 2021 word of the year will be yet, but I know 2020 will be hard to beat. What was your word for this year? Has it changed you in any way? Have you thought about your word for 2021?
