My Son is Breaking My Heart

stressed out woman in a mask

My son is 2.5 years old. He is an active little boy with a huge personality and is so very loveable. He is a typical 2 year old and is testing his boundaries, but man is he cute, even when he is being bad. Lately, he has been breaking my heart. We let him watch Cocomelon on YouTube a few times a day and somehow he found these videos that show children shopping in toy stores and playing at Jump Zone. When he watches these videos he gets upset and starts crying. He will turn to me and say “Momma, me!” He wants to go do things!

Up until the start of COVID, he came with me everywhere! He was my errand running buddy, but I haven’t been taking him places because of exposure to the virus. I often wonder if by shielding him from the virus, I am doing more damage to him emotionally and mentally. It is so tough trying to do the right thing for our children. How do we know when we have gone too far with it all? If he was older, I could explain to him what is going on and he would understand, but at two years old, it so hard to explain something that I barely understand.

I want to do the best for my children, and I thought that by making them stay home I was doing the best for them. Now I am starting to think that if this virus doesn’t go away soon, I may just have to hope for the best and start taking him out again. This is something I struggle with every day, and I don’t have the right answers at all about it. I just have to hope and pray that I am making the right decisions for myself and for my family.

Honestly, that is all we can do! So don’t give up Momma, you got this!

Elle, a New Orleans native, loves being a mom while growing her career at a local Catholic Elementary School. She loves working and volunteering in the community but can't wait to come home and spend time with her boys Charlie and Andy. Elle met her husband, Fletcher, in 2013 while she was attending the University of Louisiana at Lafayette. When she met him she knew that her life would never be boring again. She loves calling Lafayette home and is very excited she gets to raise her children here.