Let’s talk about baby fever!
The more I open up and talk to other ladies the more I realize I am not alone.
I have two children who are 11 and 9 and every year since they were around 5, I’ve questioned if I wanted another baby. I’m not talking about you saw a baby in the store and haphazardly mentioned you’d like another one. I’m talking about your womb pulsing, pros and cons list, mentally processing having another baby!
It. happens. every. year.
Strangely, it doesn’t always revolve around others having babies or seeing a baby in a store. I just wake up one day and pose the same question to my husband. “Think we should have another baby?”
His answer is ALWAYS the same. It starts with “yea, I’d love another baby, I love babies” and quickly turns to… “I’d like another baby, BUT I also like to sleep and go on vacation.”
I wish I could rationalize my baby fever and release it that easily but I can’t because I am not a man. Sometimes the thoughts trail on for days or WEEKS before I talk my self out of it. For all the logical reasons, of course.
Babies are expensive
Our kids are so old now
I like to sleep
We already have one of each
and more recently, the age gap that would be present for the kids and we are turning how old?!
Honestly, when you think about it when we had our first and second it wasn’t the right time, it was hella expensive, and we weren’t used to diapers. So how is it any different now?
When I mention my thoughts about having another baby some people respond with, how old are you? I know people are having babies later in life now, but is that really something we want to jump back into this venture in life?
My baby fever is more glaringly obvious when I am going through a huge life change like school, a new job, a move, a new car. Maybe considering having a baby is a way to bring familiarity back and hide the anxiety over life’s changes. Maybe subconsciously I miss the feelings that came with bringing a life into the world.
I have come to a point in life (yesterday) where I think I can find happiness in playing with other people’s babies and enjoy what this stage of life and kids is bringing.
But I can’t help but think, what am I really scared of?
